| HERE GOES. |
[12 Mar 2007|06:43pm] |
Alright, so here goes.
|
|
| what's real would remain. |
[12 Mar 2007|03:41pm] |
| [ |
mood |
| |
 calm |
] |
I badly need a place where i can have an audience and i still wouldn't find you around.
There's where, this blog, has for the first time, failed me.
|
|
|
[11 Mar 2007|11:11pm] |
be strong girl.
all i need is strength to go on, strength to forget, strength to tell myself life is worth living through once again.
friends, please tell me i am strong enough.
don't tell me what to do anymore.
just tell me I can do this.
That's all i ever wanted.
|
|
| pearidge. |
[10 Mar 2007|09:49pm] |
Today's a rehearsal for the kind of day(s) i want to have after O' levels.
Spending lots and lots and lots of money on everything i wanted and carrying heavy shopping bags home.
(: geeeez.
I was so irritated and bored, so at about 5, i decided to stop wasting life away and get out to do something.
I decided to go shopping. muahahahahaha. for the first time ever, i went alone.
I have to say it's much convenient when you're by your own. You can stay at your favourite store for as long as you like and nobody can rush you or whatever.
i took the money my dad gave me and some of my new year's money.
ahha. i'm really very satisfied today with all the spending, though i know we shouldn't squander so ravishly, but i supposed this is just once in a blue moon.
Now's time to go back to the books and stop wasting time on things that shouldn't matter already.
good luck to myself.
whole lot of determination and self-discipline to myself.
I can do this.
|
|
| emo shit. |
[10 Mar 2007|11:41am] |
& oh. *waves dismissively*
as if i'm going to believe in all that crap. i might have just outgrown the stupidity you've implemented in me for goodness know how long.
lol. but yes, i indeed have.
& if i have more to comment about this, i must have waved it aside because it's so fucking trivial.
so... yep. Terminated.
-insertawholebullofcraphere-
& some things are said over and over and until the point it wouldn't come out anymore. even those words know they're worthless.
it's really an ironic situation really. how did people get together at times when they need each other, truly felt that they're such great friends, have this special bond between each other etc, only to find that when those hard times are over and when new people starts flowing in, they forget they ever had such an experience.
yea, it's ironic how.
i just don't know who else is actually dependable anymore.
|
|
| kukjup fieldtrip. |
[10 Mar 2007|12:44am] |
ohwell. today's the day of our fieldtrip. I was quite excited and happy you know. we're allowed to wear our own stuff, so it's great.
the bus driver was definitely somebody sharp and alert. we all piled into the bus and settled down. Ms chiang refused to allow any headsets, so we spent it all talking, listening to the guides's introductory and laughing at silly songs and antics.
It took about an hour over to reach Tanjung Piai, where the mangrove swamps are. The largest in Malaysia, in fact. IT WAS AWESOME! I love that place the best. Never have i really see a mangrove swamp so up close, and actually walked through the stretch and everything. there's like a zillion mudskippers and snails-- creatures living in the mangrove swamps. It's also a very good place for the breeding of crabs, but i did not see any.
I saw all the three different roots mangroves have. {pictures will be on multiply} The pencil-like roots, knee cap and prop roots.The knee cap is the hardest to find, and I can't find a really nice, U-shaped one. =/ The place is really awesome. Nature just close to you, plus there isn't really alot of creepy crawlies, which suit me perfectly. @.@
Then we went to the village and walked around, talking to people and asking questions/doing surveys. Life there must have been rather peaceful. We saw a stranded cat along the way, poor thing. We tried to save the cat, by using weird methods but alas, we did not succeed. PICTURES ALL MULTIPLY! I will do one with captions and explanations and everything. (:
overall, i think i had a good time. haha.
after that, came back to singapore. went to eat with karen and etc. talk. went to safra. i even had a go with pool.
erm, i guess i still don't have any hidden talent with it yet.
mofo. whatever.
& I've been hit by a sudden thought and that suit me well. i supposed.
well, let's just say I hate wasting time.
kay, gd night.
|
|
| blahh. |
[08 Mar 2007|11:08pm] |
today is a really really long day. this stupid routine never ends. i dunno if i'm even sick of it, cuz it's until the point that i can't seem to feel anything. i just want us to do well and be happy. simple things are sometimes hardest to get through.
argh.
after band, we went to eat. it was much better. make alot of retard faces. eat. then went back to yishun.
then nicole have to go meet reuben alr. me and liting actually supposed to go home, but we thought nicole would be alone, so we went along with her.
but aiyah, so many people went. @.@
so me and liting talk about our own stuff. lol.
ahha. thanks for the listening ear!
*****
today presentation was lousy. it's so irritating, people who are supposed to help are nowhere to be found. @.@
one of the points on the ppt slide make me laugh uncontrollably. really funny leh.
going malaysia tomorrow! that's my 3rd time going there.
i dont go malaysia very often. aha. hope we'll have a great time.
i'm really exhausted now.
aaaa. gd night.
|
|
| getting in and out of this. |
[07 Mar 2007|07:13pm] |
Last year's wishes
Are this year's apologies
Every last time I come home
I take my last chance
To burn a bridge or two
I only keep myself this sick in the head
Cause I know how the words get you
Community Heart Day: we did something alot different. My whole class went to Labrador park to go through the whole trail that we are going to take to lead the sec2s. 5 teachers went with us, imagine that lol. Labrador park is a nice place. I didn't know how to appreciate it two years ago, but i do now. The forest, though secondary, are still quite beautiful! The weather is good and the air smells fresh enough. It's just a good feeling, with all these nature around.
But you also know how roads really can destroy rainforests. Just because of this road that brings about human convenience, it destroys the continuous layer of the canopy. When you look up, you see the sky, which you're not supposed to in a real rainforest.
so in a way, it kinds of ruin certain things, doesn't it?
The waters at labrador now is really clean, compared to two years ago. I can really see through the water near the coast. (: hmm, real good!
there's of course, all the creepy crawlies that i rather not see. lol. we also saw a spider the size of a nine year old's PALM. IMAGINE THAT!
it's hang on it's oversized web; creepy.
We went back to school after that. Had a great deal of laughter because of all the stupid song dedications that jianhao made. hahaha.
and danial was really a born joker without even trying.
Camy, liting, logesh and me went for sectionals LOL. then ansar and nicole came and join us. We took out new pieces and play. HAHA! SO FUN! I love one of the slow songs. That's the kind of thing i like. woo! Then we play all the local songs. So funny.
"PLAY DI TANJONG KATONG LAAA! "
:/
i want to watch LETTERS FROM IWO JIMA!!!!
hmm.
15 more dayssssss :P
|
|
| tremors! |
[06 Mar 2007|10:20pm] |
For the first time in my life, i've actually felt tremors! right in our classroom, suddenly i felt my table shaking while i was halfway through my geography. I thought it was just my table. After awhile, many others were asking if we've all felt it as well. it was quite exciting, honestly. Then i heard from somebody that there's an earthquake in Sumatra{Padang to be exact}. The magnitude recorded was actually only 6.1 on the ritcher scale. I thought it'll be higher, like more than 7, since this is the first time i felt tremors.
Anyway, went to SCH for rehearsals. hahaha. TODAY IS A GREAT DAY. (:
i guess there's nothing good left for me to say.
it's funny how words ran away from you
and come back again.
i wish they wouldn't do that.
heck.
16more days!
|
|
|
[05 Mar 2007|11:12pm] |
To A Most Unhelpful Friend:
|
|
| wasted materials. |
[05 Mar 2007|10:39pm] |
I'm going to faint, positive.
Got back some of our term test results. Believe me, they're not satisfying. Geography, i'm not so looking forward to it anymore, because ms chiang said our class did quite badly. She was quite pissed and all. I remembered one question which i forgot to site figures. HOW STUPID! That would have been easy. And the exponential question killed everyone i supposed.
here and there, i supposed i can kiss Distinction goodbye again.
really. i'm pissed with myself.
SO WHAT if i topped the class for the two stupid class test?
it's not even an A2, at the least. both B3s.
I don't know why i'm getting B3s for Geog. That's my 3rd B3. How many must i keep up?
Ms chiang said it's because she's getting super strict now, marking people down for not writing THE WAY SHE WANT. @.@
but still, it's no excuse at all. no excuse.
I don't like to see Bs for geography. It's just an in grown thing.
and I don't think just because standards is high, it means it's OKAY to get Bs.
Whatever it is, this is my best subject and my most important to secure A1 for my R1 subject.
There can only be A1. nothing less than A1.
Enough about the dreaded exams.
I PASS MY A MATH! I don't think it's satisfactory, but considering i've been getting F9s for so long, this is really quite some achievement.
It's possible to pass A math! and for midyear, i'm not just going for a C5.
I'm going for Bs and possibly, distinctions.
Same goes for Physics and E math.
Chemistry is such .. @.@ nevermind, i've said i wouldn't give up.
I'm just going to have to bite on something and keep going, haven't i?
well, i definitely will.
My classmates today were mostly upset by the results.
ahh. This is just one minor setback. I know and have seen what my classmates are capable of.
What WE are capable of.
DON'T GIVE UP AR! hahaha.
& Happy Birthday to Wanling! don't emo laa. :D
|
|
| navigation |
| [ |
viewing |
| |
most recent entries |
] |
| [ |
go |
| |
earlier |
] |
|
|
|
|
![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif?v=92.1){kind=small}
blackgrim's journal
artistic